“Nobody understands me”

Have you ever thought of this?

I used to have this thought.

I dug deeper.

I have this thought because ‘I don’t understand myself’.

I justify myself with thoughts that justifies my actions. Then I give these reasons to someone else.

And I am judging myself from inside, the don’t understand me.

Why? because I don’t believe in it myself

These are excuses, made up thoughts.

I have sat down and thought about it, to make sense of what happened.

May be it is a situation that I feel responsible for.

May be I feel humiliated and I want to protect my self image.

Then I make up reasons to protect this image, tell the other that this is why I behaved like that.

I don’t want you to reject me.

But, I am rejecting myself, the other is often unaware of this.

The truth is I don’t understand me.