Pain

Seeking pleasure when there is pain. That’s what we do when we reach for that chocolate bar when we feel sad. That’s what we do when we reach for the next bottle of alcohol. These are very obvious. Subtle ones are, seeking a change in oneself. To be better. Seeking spiritual enlightenment. To know better. Join a community, believe in something, God so it makes…

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Praise

Don’t praise me. I don’t like it. You are praising me because you want something. It puts pressure on me to perform. You praise me once, the next time I think I am expected to perform better. Praise implies there is criticism on the other end. Praise can not be without criticism. They exist together. Praise as criticism, is just words. They don’t mean anything….

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Lonely

Why am I sad? I don’t have what others have. Arising from the comparison. I am not as successful as someone else, my closest friend, my ex-girlfriend. I look at her Instagram stories and pics and get jealous. That sadness is really envy. They’re so together, I can’t tell the difference. Loneliness. loneliness is in relation to others. If there was no one else here…

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Fragmented thoughts

I don’t agree with the early posts on this blog that I’ve written. I cringe when I read them. How could I have been that stupid? The thing is I am not sure about the things I write, I think and certain things kinda make sense. I write about that. Then again the same thing does not apply to a different area if you know…

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